ROMANCE IS THE FUEL THAT KEEPS LOVE BURNING HOT...

AVARA Feat DIDICAZLI - HANYA PADAMU (OFFICIAL VIDEO)

2012-01-31T14:16:00.000+08:00

TQ

2012-01-29T23:08:00.001+08:00

Thanx again.. I enjoyed every text mags n every seconds of calls u did today... Im always here for u.. (:

Thank You

2012-01-29T18:15:00.001+08:00

Thank u for the small chat that we had juz now.. U make my day cheerful... Thank you Darwis Daniel...

CNY

2012-01-24T21:31:00.001+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to Darwis Daniel n Danish Ramadhan... Hope they have a prosperous year ahead.. (: miss both of u so much...

);

2012-01-07T13:23:00.001+08:00

Ape salah aku? I need someone to talk to! Nobody understand me!!!

New year

2012-01-02T00:06:00.001+08:00

Its new year.. It doesnt meant its new... Aku rindukan Darwis... Walaupun dia dimiliki org... Aku harap dia bahagia selalu...

WTF

2011-12-22T07:58:00.001+08:00

This is dunno how many tymes u ask me to get out of the house!! FUCK YOU!!!

U want me out u pay the bill from day 1 u use till now, pay the PUB bills that i pay every month, pay the washing machine money back!!! U idiot!!!

Missing you

2011-11-25T10:18:00.001+08:00

Been missing u badly eventhough i know u're juz my fren...

2011-11-16T19:40:00.001+08:00

Kaninabuchaochibai!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!

22nd birthday

2011-11-01T23:57:00.001+08:00

Ulang tahun Arwah Nurul... Semoga Allah mencucuri Rahmat ke atas Roh-nya... Amin

Diwali!!!

2011-10-26T10:38:00.001+08:00

Happy Diwali to all my fellow frens!!! Have a happiest day today!!!!

Im stuck at home with no plans!!! Im bored!!!

(:

2011-10-23T12:13:00.001+08:00

Thanx for the small chat.. Appreciate it loads!

Keranda da siap!!!! Best!!!

Tendon Tore

2011-10-03T14:28:00.001+08:00

Aku da jadi cacat skrg... Tkde org nk aku...

-___-

2011-09-27T21:44:00.001+08:00

Sesungguhnya aku berasa amat TERCABAR!!!

Kenangan yang indah

2011-09-26T10:47:00.003+08:00

Sometimes ade jugak aku terfikir tentang Darwis... Aku pun teringat ingat si Danish the kementot... I know i cant be with them.. Aku redha ape yg terjadi.. Deep down inside hanya tuhan saje yang tau bertapa aku rindukan mereka...

Adik sedara baru

2011-09-26T10:47:00.001+08:00

Sesungguhnya aku bersyukur kepada Allah SWT kerana memberiku sedara baru iaitu Lut Hanif Bin Hussni..

FREEDOM!!

2011-09-23T21:17:00.001+08:00

HELL YEAH!!! Im finally having back my freedom!!!

Thank GOD!

EYE - Izinkan Selamanya Namamu Dihati

2011-09-07T18:01:00.000+08:00

Ku Sapu Airmata Perpisahan - Stings (HD/Karaoke/HiFiDualAudio)

2011-09-07T17:47:00.000+08:00

im injured

2011-09-07T17:24:00.000+08:00

i injured my wrist during raya.. );

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

2011-08-23T17:33:00.000+08:00

AKU BINGIT DENGAN ORANG DEPAN AKU NIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUAT MUKE TAK AGAK2!! BENCI!!

DIA INGAT DIA BUAT KERJA TERKUTUK NIE BOLEH DAPAT NAIK PANGKAT KAPE? BOLEH BLAH LA!!! BECAUSE OF YOU I LOST MY MOOD TODAY!! SERIOUSLY AKU BENCI TENGOK MUKE KAU PUN!!!!

The Swallows Nga Lompak Ago Go ( Menari Ago Go)

2011-08-16T14:14:00.000+08:00

LAKSAMANA - Gugurnya Bunga Cinta

2011-08-16T14:09:00.000+08:00

Afgan - Terima Kasih Cinta

2011-08-16T13:46:00.000+08:00

IKATAN PERTUNANGAN

2011-08-15T23:25:00.003+08:00

I'm not sure if this sounds rite... I'm getting ENGAGE!

Right after Hari Raya.. My Aunt plans it with him... The ring will be place on my finger just right after Raya... OMG!!!

I cant have my freedom after this!! Aku tk sangka... Seriously! Firstly, he planned it to be in November.. But now? Its like few weeks away only!! Makin hari makin rase tak menentu...

Is he the right one for me? Am I ready for all this?

I'm confused now!

Recently I made a new friend.. SAIFUL BAHARI... He is 30 years old.. He is like a brother to me... Knows him from SAFRA Event.. He was one of the AV Tech which I have to contact to prepare the set-up for the Event.. He is so TALL... When I stand beside him, I'm only at his chest... (:

Went for movie date with Saiful yesterday.. It was AWESOME!!! I really treasured that moment I was with him.. Joking around and laughing till the early hours.. huhhu...

Getting back at the ENGAGEMENT, I really hope I can do this!!

GTG for now...

See u in the next post den!!! DAA!!!

The Past

2011-06-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

It was raining heavily yesterday, i decided to take the bus instead of walking to work.. So i set off to work at 2pm... It was a 3 minutes walk from my blk to the bus stop.. Reached the Stop and waited for the bus patiently... The bus came and was about to board the bus when i heard some noise behind me.. I then turned my head slightly.. I then take a second look... CONFIRMED! It was him together with his daughter, Nur Syafiqah.. I quickly board the bus and went straight to the rear.. I was shivering for quite a while during the ride to interchange.. Im not sure why but i just did.. i didnt think about it that much! After he alighted the bus, i was back to normal.. I told myself that there is nothing to worry about.. Iwent to work without thinking anything about the incident...

It was pouring since early this morning.. i woke up as usual and did my chores... Then, i decided to accompany my grandfather to the market.. Bought things and went back home... It was normal to do when im on 3rd shift... 1pm, i decided to get ready to work... I set off at 2pm exactly.. I walk normally to the bus stop.. Was waiting for the bus and there is this guy walks past me and i had a glance... It was HIM again... Fetching his daughter.. My heart beats faster then usual... Was boarding the bus while looking down... Guess he saw me... His daughter made her way to the rear seats... I was directly behind him... Saw him sat down. So i decided to sit next to him but 1 seat back... I then gently ask what he was doing in the bus (eventhough i know)... I smiled and hit on my music loud.. I didnt look at him and was telling myself that im attached... I was so NERVOUS.... I dun know why... Heart beats fast!!! He smiled at me just before he alighted the bus! i just smiled back...

WHY? WHY? WHY? IS IT FATE FOR ME TO SEE HIM AGAIN?

After almost eight freaking years since "THAT" incident happened? ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!! now my past haunts me back!!!

Till the next post den...

HAIZ....

2011-06-05T08:24:00.000+08:00

im not surprise if you read this... i know you will read this blog... dtas why i update it... Besides Harish and Darwis, i know some other people read this too...

Wadever it is, 8 more days to go!!! yeah.. like FINALLY!! another HOLIDAY this year... after my Last BANDUNG trip in MARCH... this time round, its Genting and Kuala Lumpur... not with FAMILY but with group of FRIENDS!! im going with, Idayu, Aaliah, Hamzah, Khai, Hidil and many many more...

Met Rajan early in the morning and he was like one ZOMBIE!! he didnt sleep... and MARAN was SLEEPING!!! wad a partner!!

Oh YA! i almost forgot!! my veins on my right eyes ruptured.. SUBCONJUCTIVAL HAEMORRHAGE... it is a bleeding underneath the conjuctiva which contains many small, fragile blood vessel that are easily ruptured or broken. when this happens, blood leaks into the spacebetween the conjuctiva and sclera, whereas a bruise typically appears black or blue, underneath the skin, a subconjuctival heamorrhage initially apperas bright red underneath the transparent conjuctiva and it may spread and become green or yellow, like a bruise. Doctor said it will dissappears within 2 weeks!!! imagine 2 weeks with this kind of eyes... i can only see partially with my right eyes now... SIGH!!

THIS IS DURING TE 1ST DAY WHEN IT HAPPENS

THIS IS TAKEN ON THE 2ND DAY

Thank u for letting me go

2011-05-31T14:52:00.000+08:00

At first, i was shocked to received sms fro ADI FARHAN... i tot he just wanna say hi or something.. i was with AFAD dat night... i read the sms without he knowing and the message clearly said that he want us to go our seperate ways.. this was wad i have been waiting for since 2 months ago... FINALLY! i told him yes i do have feelings for you.. but we are like normal frens who will meet once in a while... its not fair to me also... i caught him with a girl one day.. but i didnt say much.. coz i know he is much younger den me.. for now, i have AFAD.. who is keeping me company since my birthday... I NEVER FELT RELIEVE BEFORE... THANK YOU ADI FARHAN!

Saat Terakhir

2011-05-19T12:23:00.000+08:00

hebat cintamu

2011-05-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

a fren of mine sing this song.. i found dat its nice... he has a nice voice too...

Disaat Aku Mencintaimu

2011-05-19T11:48:00.000+08:00

terus terang

2011-05-18T01:57:00.002+08:00

thankz

2011-05-18T01:52:00.000+08:00

u halau me from ur life.. thank u.. now i know where i stand in u DARWIS! i know i will never win ur heart again... i shouldnt have bother you anymore!! thanx Darwis Daniel!!!

kau bagaikan bidadari

2011-05-18T01:01:00.000+08:00

Jangan Pernah Berubah

2011-05-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

random...

2011-05-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

been missing Darwis lately...

was on Medical Leave for two days.. haiz... boring... but wad to do? was breathless.. lucky didnt go to asthma mode! (hope not!)

followed Dr Lo instruction carefully... took medicine properly.. this tyme didnt overdose of anything...

He just text me... : Watpe?

ok... i found dat he is cute sometimes.. i know he belongs to someone now.. haiz... wish i didnt do those things dat made me lose him...

this tyme round, i try not to do such things...

walaupun aku tak sayangkan dia, aku akan tetap nikah.. i just need a shelter to stay... aku bersyukur sangat sangat kerana dia hadir pada saat aku memerlukan seseorang..

aku tak pernah sayang orang lain selain Dawris.. no one can change dat!!

Thank You

2011-05-01T16:57:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah, terima kasih kerana memberi aku seseorang yang betul betul menyayangi aku...

Today, while im at work, he came and bring me surprises.. He gave me a necklace... im so TOUCH!... Almost i cried... im really touched by the care and love that he showered me with... thankiu ALLAH for sending him to me...

25th April 2011

2011-05-01T11:53:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah... pujian bagi Allah SWT!

Im already 26.. Thankiu Allah for letting me stay on ur beautiful earth...

Exactly at 0000hours of 25th April 2011, Feddly Shah proposed to me... It was never expected... I was Shocked...

Thankiu for the ring... HEARTS u... Insyaallah, when the tyme comes we shall step into a new world...

im sorry

2011-04-26T01:35:00.000+08:00

aku rase serba salah terhadap Adi Farhan.. i got to know he truly love me and i dated Fadli behind his back.. oh god.. im so confused... barely my birthdae dat Fadli proposed to me.. i was wondering when Adi will do dat.. when i asked him, he said he was not ready yet as he is not even enlisted for NS... he also said dat he is too young to even think about marriage... well, i was strong to accept his reasons till i think again this evening... i suddenly feel confused... i dun even know who to choose....

to choose Shah, he is much more younger den Adi...

to choose Harish, he didnt even reply my messages..

IM TOTALLY CONFUSED!!!

Adi, im truly sorry if i cheated ur feelings...

Shah, you are way too young for me dear..

Harish, i hope u understand wad i feel...

i think i stop here...

Thankiu

2011-02-24T23:47:00.000+08:00

Today is the memorable day for me.. It was after my shift at work.. After i clock out, i turn n saw AIDIL... it was dat 10 seconds we stopped and stare at each other n smile!!! I was lucky enuf dat i didnt shout his name! I quickly realised dat he is married.. True enuf, his wife enter the door and i juz walk away... I was waiting for this very moment coz it has been so long that i have nt meet him!!

I thank GOD for dat few seconds dat make me smile the whole nite!!

THANKIU!!!

Random Tots...

2011-02-20T10:20:00.000+08:00

many things happens... im so bored and tired... having him doesnt make any difference... been thinking of him lately... but i know it wouldnt go far...

Darwis and me still contacting.. planning for a short getaway.. but gt no friends.. haiz... OH GOD! i just realised that i need to do something.. no worries... i will write again...

in the next post den... dddaaaaaa!

New tiltle with a different meaning

2011-02-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

Today i received a letter from HR.. First thing came in mind was: "did i do anything wrong?" Slowly i open the letter.. To my surprise, it was about the change in our designation... From "Projects & Events Facilitator", it is now call, "Sports Shooting Specialist". Nice and unique title i have now...

THANX HR!!

I LOVE THE NEW DESIGNATION..!! I ADMIT I REALLY DO!!

First, it was my pay, now a new designation.. thanx SAFRA!!!

Praises to ALLAH!!! Alhamdulillah...

I AM PROUD TO BE "SPORTS SHOOTING SPECIALIST"!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH...

2011-01-21T20:24:00.001+08:00

pujian bagi Allah SWT. kenaikan pangkat.... tidak terpikir akan kenaikkan pangkat kerana kerjaku sempurna kelak...

alhamdulillah juga kerana kuatkan iman ku menjalinkan persahabatan antara aku dan Mikhail, ADI dan juga tidak lupa akan DARWIS yang banyak memberiku sokongan moral... THANX many2 guyz!!

eventhough there is alot of hiccups along the way, i manage to score a Grade B+ for my work...

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!

pasal 1 mulut, periuk nasi org pecah...

2011-01-14T20:53:00.000+08:00

im pissed off by someone reactions... pasal 1 mulut, periuk nasi org pecah... dun think you can get away with this easily.. yes i can tell him not to come... can i also tell her not to come? aku da banyak dengar berita pasal kau!! yes im just a junior staff.. i can also make u suffer... without the black magic i can make u suffer... i will make u lost your job one day.. im being very nice here... dun u think u can step on my head!

IM REALLY PISSED OFF BY YOU...

I GOT NO MORE RESPECT FOR YOU! IM TELLING YOU TO FUCK OFF FROM MY SIGHT!

ARGH!!!!!

how could you?

2011-01-10T19:08:00.000+08:00

Monday blues... one after another..

Adi quarrelled with George.. i was not there to witness the incident.. as there was a call for me.. eventually Adi had a bad temper.. im still n shcoked over the incident when George came to me that Adi uses vulgarity towards him.. i really wanted to cry... but i just cant because im on shift. CK asked Adi to meet him at the office..

Adi came down and told me that today is his last day.. wad else? i straight away having fever... i just could not bare that today is his last day.. im really dissapointed with him..

i really want to cry!!! but im still in office and i just cannot cry!!! my eyes are turning red cause i control myself from tearing... i dun know how else to control... i cannot be sitting beside him with a fake smile... cannot be sitting at the counter with a fake smile either.. im really really dissapointed that he did all this.. after my hardship getting this work for him and he did this.. how could you hunz?? yes i love u!! but dat doesnt mean that u can do anything and even stepping my head when at work.... maybe today is the last dae dat i even text u or call u hunz... i promised myself that i wont be calling you hunz anymore.!!!

Screen - Permata Hati ( Download Link Included)

2011-01-04T02:36:00.000+08:00

Just for you...

random...

2011-01-04T02:34:00.000+08:00

i was wondering why sometimes, i feel i hate him and sometimes im jealous wen he talks to other girls or even text, talking on the phone.. sometimes im angry with him and the hate is there.. sometimes, i need him close to me... sometimes i dun even bother to look at his face or even wanna text him.. just like i dun need him....

i missed Darwis badly... miss talking and joking with him... guess he is happy now with his family.. but sometimes, i did text him and try to chat wit him.. but to no avail...

work was fine.. but it gets tougher each day... knowing there is much things to settle... without the tough work, thats not work.. no work in this world is easy...

ITS NEW YEAR...

hope i succeed in everything i do.. just wish my luck and wish me stay healthy...

in the next post den... da... <3

Maher Zain - For The Rest Of My Life with Lyrics

2011-01-01T19:56:00.002+08:00

How i felt..

2010-12-21T09:48:00.008+08:00

It was a stupid mistake i made!!! to someone who dun even love me.. I realised i really make a wrong move at this point of time.. How i wish i could turn back time.. Im so sad wen i got to know about his lies towards me. Im here now enduring wad he is doing.. I hope he would change for a better..

I shared my strez with Dady Darwis yesterday.. I know its wrong to do that but i have noone else who i can share with.. Many things happened and i really dunno wad else to do... I have noone else.. I juz cried to myself... Either at work or at home... Started smoking heavily this few days... Was wondering if im gonna get better... Tonsils came back.. And i feel weaker each day.. Knowing im supposed to have at least 8 hours of rest, now i only have lesser den 8 hours...

Will have to end here... Getting ready for work...

Till the next post den... Da...

Friday, 10 December 2010

2010-12-11T19:42:00.007+08:00

it was a unforgetable day for me.. its the first time i met Muhammad Adi Farhan.. a new fren made..

we went to the nearest park to chat.. we chat and laugh and we had great time.. we left at around 11.30pm coz i dun want him to miss the last bus home..

it took me awhile to meet him after knowing him for about two weeks.. giving him lame excuses everytime he asked to meetup.. well.. yesterday was an unplanned meeting.. he came to meet me in sports attire as he just finish his jog..

real frenship is really hard to find nowadays.. just like my bestie of 8 years, Mikhail Amran... and my bestie of 18 years, Mastura.. there are ups and down but i endured it and we still remain frens.. i hope my friendship with Adi will last long too..

till the next post den... daa.................

THANX

2010-11-23T00:14:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU FOR DELETING ME FROM UR LIST..

why must all this happen?

2010-11-18T13:48:00.001+08:00

APPROVING A FUNCTION ROOM BOOKING IS NOT YOU BUT ME!! IS IS DIFFICULT FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND DAT? I WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU! SUSAH SANGAT KER NAK TANYA? OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND ASK!! I HAVE ALREADY CONFIRMED THE BOOKING FOR ST HILDAS' AND NOW U SAID U ALREADY CONFIRM THE BOOKINGS FOR ISWANDI? WHAT THE FUCKING SHIT YOU DOING? YOU PISSED ME OFF TOO MANY TIMES!! I CANT STAND YOU!!

~~YOU JOLLY WELL KNOW IM NOT FEELING WELL YET YOU CAN DO THIS TO ME? I CAME TO WORK WEN IM NOT FEELING WELL JUST TO COMPLETE WAD IS NOT FINISH YET U GIVE ME MORE THINGS!!~~

~~IF YOU THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN PISSED OFF, WELL YOU'RE WRONG!! IM PISSED OFF WITH YOU!! FUCKING SON OF A BITCH!! ARGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~

IM SORRY!!! BUT I REALLY HATE SHARING

2010-11-16T22:39:00.000+08:00

U KNOW THAT I HATE SHARING YET U STILL WANTS ME IN UR LIFE WHEN U ALREADY HAVE HER! I DID ASKED IF U WILLING TO LET HER GO BUT IGNORE THE QUESTION. WEN I WISH U ALL THE BEST WITH HER, U USED VULGARITY ON ME! U INSIST ME HAVING THE RELATIONSHIP WITH U BUT U STILL WITH HER!! WTF! I HAVE BEEN PATIENCE WITH U BUT WAD DID I GET? I GOT NOTHING!

WHEN I FOUND SOMEONE WHO I LIKE, U GOT UPSET! BUT U NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL WHEN U HAVE UR WIFE! CUBA FAHAM PERASAAN AKU!

MEMANG AKU SAYANGKAN KAU! AKU BOLEH BAHAGIAKAN KAU! TAPI SANGGUPKAH KAU LEPASKAN DIA? AKU TIDAK SUKA SHARE!!!!!! U KNOW ME TOO WELL!! U SHIOULD KNOW WAD I HATE!! I HATE SHARING!!!

I LET U HAVE THE LAST SAY!

IF MY TUMOUR GROW TO ANOTHER STAGE, AND I HAVE TO LEAVE THIS WORLD, SOMEONE WILL DEFINITELY INFORM YOU!! U DUN NEED TO KNOW WHO WILL INFORM U!

DARWIS DANIEL,

HOPE U ARE HAPPY WITH HER AND I WISH U STOP BOTHERING ME AGAIN!

ADNAN...

I GUESS I HAVE TO STOP LIKING U!!! I FELT DAT IM NOT FIT FOR YOU. HOPE U ET A BETTER ONE..

HARISH NATH SINGH..

STOP LOVING ME CAUSE I CANT LOVE U! IM SORRY!

MUHAMMAD HADLY QUSYAIRIE @ MOHAMED AIDIL ABU BAKAR...

IM NOT STUPID LIKE HOW U THINK! JUST HAVE TO OPEN UR MOUTH AND SAY!!! HOPE U LEAVE ME ALONE TOO!!

AZHAR ISMARDHI ISMAIL..

I KNOW U HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME.. BUT IM SORRY.. I CAN ONLY TREAT U LIKE A BROTHER.. WISH U GET A BETTER WOMAN...

I KNOW!

2010-11-14T19:28:00.000+08:00

I know dat u are out there somewhere! Im not as stupid as u think! Wadever it is, if u want me to get out of ur life, just let me know! TELL ME! dun have to keep quiet and make me think u are inside!!! Wad the hell???!!!

Im telling u that i hate u rite now!!

Wad i want

2010-11-04T15:35:00.000+08:00

How i wish that u make the first move!!

The reason i call u PUNAN is to make u happy.. Im sorry if u dun like it.. I want us to be like last time.. Being frens who help one another..

I remembered the day u saved me from up there. I appreciate wad u have done.. Thank you.. But now i felt dat we a drifting apart after wad i have said to u.. How i wish to turn back time.. Im sorry.. All i need is just for you to be frens.. I really need that frenship to make me happy..

1st November 2010

2010-11-01T19:24:00.000+08:00

Today marks the day she is supposed to be her 21st birthday. How i wish she is still around to celebrate it with me.. I really miss her so much.. Four years have passed yet i still cant get over it.. Although there is up and downs between us, she still remain in my heart.. Lulu, if u can listen to my heart please note that i really miss u.. Wish u were here so i can share with u alot of things dat is happening.. I really didnt expect this to happen.. I let u go cause i know u will rest in peace.. Miss u so much!!

Love,
Kakak

Bitch

2010-10-30T10:37:00.000+08:00

Received a text message from a bitch! Asking me to stop disturbing the "husband". Well excuse me!!! I got pissed off! Wad a bitch!! Hidup kalau seorang ustazah boleh uh nasihat pasal maruah!! Nie dia sendiri tkde maruah nk nasihat org!!!

ASTARGHFIRULLAH!!!!

Dun Ever Change!

2010-10-28T00:36:00.002+08:00

it seems dat it is difficult to even talk to you.. texting u already tense me up... sometime i just cried cause i cannot get you.. it seems u changed alot.. i just missed the way you are.. the way you text me.. you once said that you will never missed a minute to text me.. look at you now? u text me like 1 msg per hour or it can comeout to 1 msg per 2 days.. even wen i called you, you would either reject or didnt pick up my call... giving excuses that your prepaid is low or no reception! i sometimes got too worried!! but you wouldnt understand how i felt!! my love towards you have never change from the first day i know you.. how i wish to get the old you back in my life!!! i really mean dat!!

till the next post den... daaaaaaa........

Need him by my side

2010-10-25T10:35:00.000+08:00

I need him by my side.. I know he wouldnt accept me by now as he is having someone else.. I might not be long here in this world.. All i need is love from someone.. Dear, if u read this please come back to my life.. At this moment, i dun want to be alone

OMG!!

2010-10-14T01:15:00.000+08:00

was receiving treatment for my fever n diarrhea.. i asked this question: Doctor, why is the back of my neck very hard like a stone? and it made my neck stiff sometimes.. it hurts awhile.. but it went away.. Doctor replied: let me have a look.. ouh.. its actually... TUMOUR.. by den, i was too shocked to even say anything.. he continued, u should have it remove.. or it will effect the whole body.. I said thank you and left!

i was sad! obviously no one is by my side when i received this news! now not even my family members knows about it! i dun want my aunt to know!! my grandparents will have a shocked if they know it too...

after knowing the news, my weight actually decreased!! i didn't have mood to eat or drink! i went to work normally and do my work as usual.. but i will just get tired easily and bored!! nowadays, im having INSOMNIA!! i really cant sleep!!

i have to get back to bed! my granny's yelling at this time!! URGH!!

till the next post den.. da!! ):

how could you?

2010-10-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

how could you do this to me?

wanna know if im really in love with u by hurting me and said that u r married? hell no!! yes i do love you! but when u told me that ur wife is pregnant, im sorry, i have to go out from ur life! i just dun want history to repeat! had it once, i tolerate, had it twice, i remain calm, this is the 3rd! i cannot stand it anymore!!

reason for u to do this to me is to test me? u test my patience enuf! its too hurt for me to stay in the position where im hanging in the mid air!

first u told me that u are married... i accept.. i kept quiet although it hurts me.. 2nd u told me u dun have any feelings for her.. i accept it.. it hurts bt i overcomes it.. 3rd u told me ur wife is pregnant.. i told myself i had to move on.. u build that family and i dun intend to break it! i moved on! 4th wen i moved on, and found someone who is willing to love me, u confessed to me that u r not married! WTH?? this is where i dunno which is true? there is no proof!! u making me like... URGH!!!!

after all the bruises in my heart starting to cure, u again give me cuts.. this time it really tore my heart! i tak sangka u buat i macam nie!! how could you!!

SHOULD I TAKE A BREAK? VACATION TO EASE MY TENSION?

ARGH!! i really dunno wad else to do! i dun even know who to believe!!! wad a life??

For M Darwis Daniel

2010-10-14T00:37:00.000+08:00

It gonna sound awful! but this song is for you!

till the next post den.. da!!

u never fail to make me smile

2010-10-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

hi all.. i was in low mood since thursday.. and got the news of Hadly accident.. he almost leave us.. bt with the prayers from family and friends, ALHAMDULILLAH he's fine now.. without this news, i wouldnt know wad is his feeling and his fantasy.. his sister, Yatee, updates me about him.. we chat and she told me abt his bother wish just before he got into the accident.. Hadly wanted to get engage.. he was fond of someone, which at first i dun know who.. after awhile, his sister told me that the person he wants to get engage was ME! i got a shocked!!! i was speechless.. i didnt realised all this while he was fond of me.. i just know him for barely three weeks.. i couldnt say anything..

he text me just one day after he woke up from his 3 days sleep.. he said he was sorry cause didnt manage to text me.. (he didnt know that i knew abt his accident and his engagement plans) i continue texting him as normal. i ask him abt the engage thingy and he said yes he want to engage.. but he said that he have not meet the girl that he want to engage with.. i just assume i dun know anything.. he den finally admit that the girl who he wants to get engage to is me.. i went... WWHHHOOOOAAA! i just didnt ask much cause i dun want to get hurt again. i just pretend this never happen.

wadever it is, im happy to lead a new relationship with Muhammad Hadly Qusyairie Bin Abu Bakar. he never fail to make me smile.. i hope this relationship goes well as we plan..

got to end here.. going to meet him later..

in the next post den... da..

Saturday 18 September 2010

2010-09-18T16:24:00.001+08:00

hey all... been busy with work and hari raya.. eventhough didnt go out or celebrate, i still got loads of workloads. been having ot at work.. meaning, more money to come.. and more leaves to come.. hopefully im able to go on leave on december this year.. have not even confirm going where.. tot of going either with harnizah or with mai. still thinking.. hmmm if i go penang, i have to go with harnizah.. if i go kl, i can go with anyone.. can go with mai or harnizah or both! dunno.. still making decisions.. really wanted to go for enjoyable time and spend time without any family member.. i wanna have fun!

past few days, i quarrelled with harish and we have made decision to end the relationship with no regrets. i feel that the relationship at the rate we are going thru is not working and its wasting my time.

den suddenly a day after i end with harish, darwis daniel text me.. calling names which he used to call me.. tears of memories run down my cheeks.. the song Dambaan reminds me about him. the way i love him is never been erase out of my mind! i dunno why, i still love him. and because of this, i still cant forget him. i tend to think of him whenever i was in relationship with someone else. i just cannot forget darwis daniel. althugh he always said he misses me, but that cannot be true.. he's married! i rather be alone den having to be hurt by someone. i shouldnt have fall in love. cause everytime i did, i surely got hurt!!! either they get their own life or god loves him more!! i just hate being hurt over and over again. i just hope to settle down with someone who love me for wad im and not someone who wants to change me.

Hari raya? not for me.. i dun have anyone to celebrate with.. this year is the most unhappy hari raya for me. no darwis and danish. both of them celebrated with their new family member.. me? with noone! i occupy my time with work... killing time in office doing work so that i wont think about my unhappiness.

currently now in office.. writting this blog cause i really felt heavy. my mind full of things thats not supposed to be in there.. i guess i will end here or else i will have my cheeks wet of unhappiness tears...

till the next post...

Dya );

wad i do always wrong for u...

2010-09-04T15:32:00.001+08:00

i just dunno wad else to say and do! wad did i do to u wrong? if you are good enuf, why dun you do it urself? why need me to help? i really cannot tolerate anymore from you!!! i had enuf ok! this is not my prooject. im gud enuf to help u since ive done this before. yet u yell at me and telling me wad i did was all wrong for u?? so now u telling me that i dunno know how to run the project and my previous project was unsuccessful? WTH? my previous project got very good response and it eventually was the most successful one since i join three years back! i know i just join as fulltime for less den 6 mths yet i can prove that my event was successful and i even got credits by Bosses.. im not talking about 1 but 2 Bosses!!! i took my initiative to help u sorce for things and do up poster!! u didnt even say any thank u?wad is this? im handing it all over to u because im not deployed and im not part of this project! THANX FOR NOT DEPLOYING ME! think for yourself!! y other parents or coaches trust me more den they trust u!!! everybody seems to hate u more!! because y? ask urself! u have such an attitude who noone likes! im not the type of person who like to hate other people for ntg! i will hate u forever!! i dun give a damn on this anymore!! when i say i hate u means i hate u!!! i thank god that u lost the precious things.. i may not know who took it but im greatful enuf! serve him right!!

Random tots

2010-08-14T14:48:00.003+08:00

hey peeps... im back...!!

i really dunno wad to write but i have alot to share which can actually release some strezz from my head!!

first is regarding harish and me. it seems that our relationship is just like normal frens. i dunno know y but i feels dat sometimes, i dun remeber if he even exists. these few days, we started to text each other. i tried my best to win his heart bt i just couldnt do it. we quarreled bt i seems to remain calm. he wanted to end this relationship and to my surprised, i said ok.. wad was i doing?? i was like: did i just said ok? he remain quiet for a few hours bt continue to text me and said he was truly sorry... his vulgarity was up to my nerves den.. i remain chill.. he told me dat he misses me so much.. and apologised for wad he did.. he insist to start afresh. by then is the start of fasting month. i was down with fever on the first day of fasting. very high fever indeed. he still says the word: I LOVE YOU! and i would go like: me too! thanx!!

while having fever, and while resting after taking half day leave from work, Darwis text me. we were texting just like we used to. the feeling was there.. i miss him den.. it was nice to text with him. wen we started to quarrel and the hot topic was him gt married!! (wad a topic!) we quarreled and things got into emotionally bad.. i gt hit by it!! makes me think of him now and den...

come back to Harish, i suddenly ask him if he is willing to convert. he said no and he prefers CIVIL MARRIAGE instead. i said ok and was taken aback by his words. wad abt our children den? wad race are going to be? all these questions ran abt in my head. i asked if his parents agrees on this ideas he said yes of course they will. does he really wants me to be his wife?? absolutely yes he wants me as his wife. while texting with him, Darwis was texting me on the other page asking me to forget him eventhough i cant. i was more emotionally upset wen he said dat to me.. the more he said it the more upset i was and the more i was thinking to end my life with the CIVIL MARRIAGE although Darwis stopped me.

why should he stopped me wen he himself left me n gt married? having said dat, now i feel dat it is better to start afresh with Harish. although i cannot 100% forget Darwis, at least i have someone who can be my listening ears..

about the CIVIL MARRIAGE thingy, i think i will have to think it over again.. its nt as simple as we think. my family wont be able to accept it..

well, i have to be strong now. i hope i will overcome all this and settle this on my own. i have faith n i believe dat i can go thru this!!

in my next post den.. daaa....

MOTIVATION KEEPS ME ALIVE

2010-05-19T23:34:00.016+08:00

work was easy..but getting along was not as simple.. did the best but still cannot impress my other staffs. although im a full timer, everyone treats me like a part timer. sometimes i felt regrets after joining. but i must think.. i got responsibilities which i cannot let go. i felt down but i have to be strong to face it.
he left me and got married! again i felt down. i calm myself and stand tall. it was such a pain and i almost went to depression mode. luckily there are still people around me who help to cheer me up. thanx to those people. i appreciate it loadz!
April 2010 is not a good birthday for me this year. on the day of my birthday, god loves him more den i do. he went away without saying the last bye. he was killed in an accident. again i was hit by a drepression. it didnt last long. my aunt cheer me up with an unplanned trip. i stood up by the time i reached home. i told myself that i should be strong and hoped all the sadness be far away from me...
thank god dat im fine now. alot of frenz motivate me.. they gave me strength to carry on. now im motivated enuf to get back to work and aim for my best. thanx people for the supportz all this while...
THANX!!
more upcoming projects is in the list.. one of them is our very own monthly trials... im going to take charge of the upcoming course... its gonna be my 1st ever course. maybe i should take it just like the way i handle my lecture class before.. it should be happening!!!
after waiting for that fren of mine who went missing, he finally called me this evening.. he MIA due to some technical course which he was sent to. he was in Kuala Lumpur for his course which lasted for a year! didnt manage to talk to him long because i was eating wen he called.. but he promised me that he will call me tmrw.. and i trust him.. i miss u badly bestie..

i miss my sister!!!

i shouldnt have fall in love. cause everytime i did, i surely got hurt!!! either they get their own life or god loves him more!! i just hate being hurt over and over again. i just hope to settle down with someone who love me for wad im and not someone who wants to change me.

Imran Ajmain - Jika Engkau Pergi

2010-05-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

CAMELIA

2009-04-23T09:55:00.000+08:00

Camelia maafkanlah aku
Karena ku tak bisa temani tidurmu
Camelia lupakanlah aku
Jangan pernah lagi kau temui aku

Kau wanita terhebat
Yang pernah singgah di hatiku
Kau wanita yang tegar
Aku mohon lupakan aku

*Sudahlah jangan menangis lagi
Ku rasa cukup sampai di sini
Mungkin di suatu saat nanti
Kau temui cinta yang sejati

**Sudah cepat lupakanlah aku
Jangan pernah ungkit masa lalu
Ku takut kekasihku pun tahu
Kau pernah menjadi simpananku

Camelia...

Kau wanita terhebat
Yang pernah singgah di hatiku

miss some people..

2009-04-23T09:09:00.002+08:00

i juz miss Darwis and Danish.. but he juz couldnt understand what i gone thru'.. Hanaffi almost getting DIVORCE with the wife.. Hasron was CAUGHT for 3 cases.. Nasir was DITCH by the gf.. Fairuz is juz a SUCKER... AND ME, IM JUZ BEING ALONE...

Abg Amali, Mastura's fiancee, was send to remand prison for 6 weeks.. so practically, she will sms me nonstop!! haiz.. boring...

My parents are going on their seperate ways.. so left me to support my brother..

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BACK ON TRACK..

ON 7th APRIL, I BOUGHT 3 NEW HP!! ALL 1st HAND!! THEY ARE: SONY ERICSSON T700, LG SECRET KF750 AND NOKIA 3120 CLASSIC.. NEXT STOP, MORE HP I GUESS?? HAHA.. SEE HOW.. WANTED TO GET A NEW LAPTOP.. SEE HOW.. MAYBE MY UNCLE WILL GET ME 1 WHEN HE COMES BACK ON 1st MAY.. YEAH...

I REALLY MISS DARWIS DANIEL!!! PLEASE UNDERSTAND MY SITUATION NOW WILL U!! YEAH IVE BEEN WAITING FOR U!!!

TILL HERE...

NYAA GOLD AWARD PROJECT.. HERE I COME!!

LOVES
DYA

Bukan Superstar - Project Pop

2009-01-23T14:51:00.001+08:00

Andai aku Pasha Ungu
semua wanita kan memburuku
Bila aku Ariel Peterpan
kau yakin ngefans karena orang keren

Sexy badannya.. Mulan Jameela
cantiknya dia seperti aku
Giring Nidji sahabat aku
dekat denganku.. dialah aku..

Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priai
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai
Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

Andai ku Letto wis pasti aku wong jowo
Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priai
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kata orang ku mirip Glenn Fredly
suara merdu, wanita jatuh hati
Namun semua itu hanya mimpi bagimu woohoo~

Jadi… semua itu hanya mimpi?
Ya iya laah… masya ya iya dong
duren aja dibelah bukan dibedong

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kamu bukan super, kamu bukan star
Kalo digabungin kamu bukan superstarr..
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priai
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai
Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

SAFRA AVventura 2009, 11th JANUARY 2009

2009-01-11T21:49:00.011+08:00

BEING THE OFFICIALS FOR THE RACE IS NOT A SIMPLE JOB.. WE HAVE TO REACH SAFRA BY 0330 HOURS TO START WORK.. SO YA.. WAKE UP EARLY.. AS EARLY AS 0200 HOURS.. WALKED TO SAFRA.. DEN BOARD THE BUS TO DAIRY FARM AND DID ALL THE REGISTRATION FOR THE PARTICIPANTS.. MY ROLE IS JUZ TO OVERLOOK THE VOLUNTEERS AND HANDLE ANY LAST MINUTES CASES..

BY 0700 HOURS, THE RACE BEGUN!! AS THE RACE BEGIN, WE, THE OFFICIALS/STAFFS, DID SOME PACKING UP TO PROCEED BACK TO SAFRA YISHUN COUNTRY CLUB (SYCC).. WE TOOK THE RIDE BACK TO SYCC BY BUS AND HAD TO STOP AT SELETAR TO ALIGHT SOME VOLUNTEERS TO THEIR CHECKPOINTS..

ONCE WE REACHED THE SYCC, I HAVE TO START UP WITH THE MEDALS AND GIFTS BOOTH.. INITIALLY, I DEPLOYED VOLUNTEERS TO THE BOOTH AND I START MY PROPER ROLE.. AS A PA, I HAVE TO FOLLOW WHERE EVER MY 3RD BOSS GOES.. SO ESLI WAS THE 3RD BOSS.. WE WERE RUNNING ALL OVER SYCC.. SOME STAFFS EVEN CALL US AS RACERS - STAFF CHALLANGED.. YEAH WE WERE RUNNING ALL THE WAY..

NOT MUCH BOTTLENECK CASES ON THIS PROJECTS.. IT RUNS SMOOTHLY AS WE PLANNED!! SO YEAH WE DID A GOOD JOB ALTHOUGH IT IS MY FIRST PROJECT.. THANKS TO MS ESLI, MS ELIZA, MR HUSSEN, AND CLUB MANAGER, MR VINCENT TO GIVE ME THIS OPPORTUNITY TO RUN IT.. THANX TO THEM!!

OH YA.. DURING THE RACE, I MANAGED TO MEET UP WITH MS KALLISTA AND MR ERNEST... THEY WERE THERE FOR ANOTHER EVENT CALLED COHESION SIR BY THE ARMY.. WE TALKED AWHILE.. BUT I HAVE TO RUSH FOR MY DUTY SO I DIDNT MANAGE TO TALK MUCH..

FYI, MY WORKING HOURS FOR JUST TODAY IS FROM 0300 HOURS TO 1900 HOURS.. I JUZ LOVE IT!!

SO OVERALL, I REALLY ENJOYED THIS PROJECT.. AND I HOPE I CAN DO OTHER PROJECTS TOO..

SORRY

2009-01-08T00:31:00.007+08:00

HI GUYS, SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING.. BEEN VERY VERY BUSY!! MANAGING MY TIME WAS BIT DIFFICULT DUE TO SOME REASONS.. GOT BETTER SINCE THE LAST SURGERY.. (SORRY DIDNT TELL PEOPLE ABOUT IT) BACK TO SQUARE 1..

NEW YEAR WAS KINDA GOOD.. DIDNT GO ANYWHERE.. EXCEPT WORK AND WORK.. SINCE DECEMBER I WAS BUSY MAINTAINIG A STALL.. GAINING SOME EXPERIENCE AS A BOSS!! SO FAR SO GOOD.. WHILE BUSY, I STILL MANAGED TO FIND SOME FREE TIME FOR ME..

GOT TO KNOW THIS YOUNG ARAB BOY!! HIS NAME IS SYED NASIR SYED HAMEED.. WE EXCHANGED NUMBERS AND BE FRIENDS.. AFTER AWHILE, WE WERE MORE DEN FRIENDS.. HAHAKZ.. FAST RITE.. WELL.. HE KINDA YOUNG.. HE IS ABOUT ROUGHLY MY CLASSMATES AGE.. BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN WE CANT BE TOGETHER RITE? HMM.. YEA.. WE DID.. AND OUR PARENTS AGREED ON IT.. SO YEA.. WE WORK IN THE SAME BUILDING.. DIFFERENT DEPARTMENT.. YEA.. SO GOT TO MEET HIM ALMOST EVERYDAY.. BUT WE WERE SO LOW PROFILE DAT NOT MANY PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT IT.. NOT EVEN MY BOSS OR MY AUNT!! HAHAKZ..

OTHER DEN DAT, IM BUSY WITH MY SEC SKUL OUTINGS.. STALL.. PART TIME JOB.. FULL TIME JOB.. AND MY HOUSE!! HAIZ..

ACTUALLY I CANT WAIT FOR THE AVVENTURA ON THIS SUNDAY!! MY FIRST BIG PROJECT AT WORK!! WEE!! GONNA BE EXCITED!!

OH YEA.. I CUT MY HAIR!!! SUPER SHOULDER LENGTH!! KINDA MEAN TO SACRIFICE ON CERTAIN PROBLEMS...

SO YEA.. BUSY WITH MY CCA ORIENTATION!! ARGH!! SATURDAY!! AND IM SO NOT PREPARED!! DEN WITH THE ZONE MEETING ON THE SAME DAY!! HAIZ.. I THINK THE MEETING IS ABOUT MY PROMOTIONS.. I REALLY DUN CARE IF I DIDNT GET THE PROMOTIONS.. HAHAKZ.. ITS ONLY LIKE ZONE STAFF OFFICER GRADE 4.. COME TO THINK OF IT, MY RANK IS HIGHER DEN ALL MY TEACHER IN CHARGE!! BUT STILL I RESPECT THEM AS A MENTOR!! WITHOUT THEM I WONT BE WHERE I AM NOW!!

TELL U WAD!! IM GONNA STOP HERE COZ I HAVE TO GO TO BED.. I HAVE NOT SLEEP FOR LIKE TWO DAYS STRAIGHT DUE TO SPENDING COUNTLESS HOURS WITH MY LOVE ONES.. YEA.. SO I WILL STOP HERE FOR TODAY..

TILL THE NEXT POST DEN..

DA!!

BLACK DIAMOND

2009-01-07T23:59:00.002+08:00

Lyrics | Stratovarius lyrics - Black Diamond lyrics

DOWN THE DRAIN

2008-12-08T23:50:00.001+08:00

ITS ALL OVER!!

THE MISSING DAYS

2008-11-27T11:22:00.009+08:00

hey there.. basically i was abit busy to write.. so ya.. on sunday, i went to my cousin's wedding in tech whye... met my aunts and uncles.. not much fun but its great.. knowing most of my relatives who i have never see before.. hmm ya..

den on monday, went to Johore's Istana!! take a few picas and had great time..

tuesday there was a breakdown in communication.. about Mr Ben class.. didn't manage to go his class because i have made an appointment with a friend of mine to take some photos.. so after skul went to Taman Warisan.. got to watch a few tarian from Malacca..

on wednesday, it was the so called "last day" of skul.. so ya.. my classmates took picas!! i was not feeling reather well.. did some reading to control my migraine.. tried to went home early to settle some things but ended reaching home nearly 8.. luckily, harish and i cancelled our meeting.. he got something on... ya.. den my migraine got worst!! my eyes felt like popping out!!! i went to my uncle's house in yishun! cause i cannot take it as it is really damn super freaking painful!

reached my uncle house, he quickly start pressing my head cause i was in great pain.. and my face really pale!! so ya.. he did wad he can.. i just got no strength to even sit up!

today reached home nearly 8am.. straight to my room and i slept till harish called.. and so ya.. im here blogging...

next up.. most of the picas in my camera and mobile..

THANK YOU FOR UR LOVE!

2008-11-18T00:34:00.003+08:00

To lay a kiss on your lips,

so gentle and delicate

is like picking the drops of dew

off the petals of a rose.

I hold you close and feel safe,

sheltered in from the rain,

from the storms that grow and surround me.

I take your hand and look into your eyes

and see a heart made of gold and soul so pure.

You see you are an angel, an angel to me.

I could not help but fall madly in love with you,

the one who stole my heart.

I’m glad you did

because I could never find one such as you...

Some one who makes each day the best,

each laugh the longest,

each tear the saddest,

and a life, my life, worthwhile.

My eyes beheld a sky one night,

It seems so long ago,

A perfectly painted portrait,

Be-speckled with blue and gold.

As I sit and ponder more,

And it was truly your simple beauty,

That gave the stars their perfect glare.

I’ve never known a love like yours

Nor thought it could be true,

But every time I kiss your lips

I feel what love can do

With hair like silk

And lips so tender,

Each moment with you

Makes my heart surrender

I couldn’t live, I couldn’t breathe

Without you by my side,

Never will I let you go,

My love will never hide

And in my heart you’ll always be

From now until forever,

No matter what, no matter where

We’ll always be together

When all the songs are over

and all the words been said

The sun grows dim across the sky

and the world prepares for bed

I oft can take a moment now

to view the sky above

and whisper God a simple prayer

to thank him for your love

A LOVE LIKE NO OTHER

2008-11-15T14:04:00.002+08:00

You came into my life unexpectedly,

and everything took a turn for the better.

Your warm eyes, your laugh,

the sincere way you speak,

and the kindness you showed me,

all became a part of my life.

As you unfolded yourself to me,

I discovered more and more beauty.

I have never seen so much

gentleness in one person.

Without even knowing it,

you were slowly making a place

for yourself in my heart.

It used to seem so hard at times

to feel so close in a relationship.

But it’s so easy to feel close to you.

I can’t tell you how nice that feels.

I realize now that I had never known

what it meant to be loved

until I was loved by you.

I never felt a love

Like this before

It's a love like no other

Something I have always hoped for

A love with friendship Humour and heart

A bond so strong

It would never part

A love that makes you smile

From ear to ear

A love that is joyful

Without any fear

A love that is beautiful

From the inside out

A love with no tears,

Pain, or doubt

A love with soul

So tender and true

A love that I have found

Only in you...

U MA MAN!!

2008-11-13T00:47:00.003+08:00

You're my man, my mighty king,

And I'm the jewel in your crown,

You're the sun so hot and bright,

I'm your light-rays shining down,

You're the sky so vast and blue,

And I'm the white clouds in your chest,

I'm a river clean and pure,

Who in your ocean finds her rest,

You're the mountain huge and high,

I'm the valley green and wide,

You're the body firm and strong,

And I'm a rib bone on your side,

You're an eagle flying high,

I'm your feathers light and brown,

You're my man, my king of kings,

And I'm the jewel in your crown.

Your lips speak soft sweetness

Your touch a cool caress

I am lost in your magic

My heart beats within your chest

I think of you each morning

And dream of you each night

I think of your arms being around me

And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen

But I am quickly on my way

You hold a heart in your hands

That has never before been given away

Love is the greatest feeling,

Love is like a play,

Love is what I feel for you,

Each and every day,

Love is like a smile,

Love is like a song,

Love is a great emotion,

That keeps us going strong,

I love you with my heart,

My body and my soul,

I love the way I keep loving,

Like a love I can't control,

So remember when your eyes meet mine,

I love you with all my heart,

And I have poured my entire soul into you,

Right from the very start.

I love you so deeply,

I love you so much,

I love the sound of your voice

And the way that we touch.

I love your warm smile

And your kind, thoughtful way,

The joy that you bring

To my life every day.

I love you today

As I have from the start,

And I'll love you forever

With all of my heart.

When I'm with you,

eternity is a step away,

my love continues to grow,

with each passing day.

This treasure of love,

I cherish within my soul,

how much I love you...

you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,

I've never felt before,

with each touch of your hand,

I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,

whenever we part,

know I hold you dearly,

deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,

I pray you hold true,

"Forever And Always,I Will Love You."

My love is like an ocean

It goes down so deep

My love is like a rose

Whose beauty you want to keep.

My love is like a river

That will never end

My love is like a dove

With a beautiful message to send.

My love is like a song

That goes on and on forever

My love is like a prisoner

It's to you that I surrender.

Love is like a lump of gold,

Hard to get, and hard to hold.

Of all the boys I've ever met,

You're the one I can't forget.

I do believe that God above,

Created you for me to love.

He chose you from all the rest,

Because he knew I would love you best.

I thought love was just a mirage of the mind,

it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find.

But the day I met you, I began to see,

that love is real,and exists in me.

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,

And for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare,

You're perfect and so is this love that we share.

We have so much more than I ever thought we would,

I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give,

I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,

By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,

How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

Day by day

Night by night

Kiss by kiss

Touch by touch

Step by step

I fall in love

A love so incomprehensible

So vivid

So unique

So wild,

that not even the reign of God could control

A passion so deep

A need so necessary

A want so strong

The universe would not handle

I love you today

I’ll love you tomorrow

I’ll love you forever

NAMAMU KINI JADI SEBUTAN...

2008-11-12T23:35:00.006+08:00

ingin ku curahkan rahsia hatiku
buat insan yang ku rindui selalu
luangkan masamu oh sayang untuk ku
dengarlah kasih rayuanku

bukan ku meminta simpati darimu
duhai dewi ku hanya pengertianmu
yang ku harapkan dari semenjak dulu
semoga kan terbuka lagi pintu hatimu

mengapa engkau meninggalkan diriku
ketika aku memerlukan cintamu
tiada pernawar rinduku ini
yang melanda di kalbu

kau warnakan duniaku dengan pelangi ungu
kau lakarkan hidup sepiku
dengan benang sutera cintamu
hingga aku terus terlena terasyiknya

dalam khayalan mimpi
yang belum aku pasti
kini ku harap kau kembali
menerangi duniaku yang sepi hatiku sunyi

namamu kini menjadi sebutanku
sampai bilakah harusku pendam rasa
yang dilanda rindu pelangi cintamu
yang kini bersemadi jauh di lubuk hati

LOVE IS IN THE AIR...

2008-11-09T22:10:00.003+08:00

9 days since i know harish.. i enjoyed being with him.. we laugh at jokes.. smile at each other.. most importantly, we love each other..

as day goes by, i develope more interest to get to know him.. well of course (his favourite quote), there is alot more things that we should know about each other.. obviously it will take time to do that..

A special world for you and me

A special bond one cannot see

It wraps us up in its cocoon

And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold

Gently nestling us to the fold

Like silken thread it holds us fast

Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break

A new one forms in its wake

To bind us closer and keep us strong

In a special world, where we belong

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

I love the way you look at me,

Your eyes so bright and brown.

I love the way you kiss me,

Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,

And the ways you show you care.

I love the way you say, "I Love You,"

And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,

Always sending chills down my spine.

I love that you are with me,

And glad that you are mine.

Your lips speak soft sweetness

Your touch a cool caress

I am lost in your magic

My heart beats within your chest

I think of you each morning

And dream of you each night

I think of your arms being around me

And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen

But I am quickly on my way

You hold a heart in your hands

That has never before been given away

I wrote your name in the sky,

but the wind blew it away.

I wrote your name in the sand,

but the waves washed it away.

I wrote your name in my heart,

and forever it will stay.

Love is the greatest feeling,

Love is like a play,

Love is what I feel for you,

Each and every day,

Love is like a smile,

Love is like a song,

Love is a great emotion,

That keeps us going strong,

I love you with my heart,

My body and my soul,

I love the way I keep loving,

Like a love I can't control,

So remember when your eyes meet mine,

I love you with all my heart,

And I have poured my entire soul into you,

Right from the very start.

9 NOVEMBER 08

2008-11-09T21:57:00.002+08:00

i went to my aunt house at Toh Guan... met my aunt who came all the way from Malacca to see her grandniece... for me its my niece!! not much picas taken coz not much time..

so ya.. let the picas do the talking!!!

7 NOVEMBER 08

2008-11-09T19:01:00.006+08:00

i was in college east... which is ITE Simei.. i was selected to represent college central for the dialog session with the Minister Dr Ng...

let the picture do the talking...

1st November 2008

2008-11-04T02:41:00.004+08:00

1st November has always remind me of my late sister.. i miss her though.. did some prayers for her.. no matter wad she always on my mind and heart..

aside from that... i met Harish.. currently my bf.. my 1 and only bf.. intro bout him...

- so call same age
- still studying - ite simei - higher niter in
electrical engineeing - final year..
- working part-time
- rides RXZ
- drives car - currently no car of his own..
- gentleman
- fav question: "asal ehk?"
- MOST IMPORTANTLY:
- STAY SENGKANG
- LOVES ME!!

thats all i can intro about him.. actually while writing about him i felt that i miss him already.. haha..

this morning i was at Sengkang Polyclinic.. was having bad migraine, cold... was waiting like 2 hours!! its super damn overcrowded!! sms hubby.. but he woke up at around 11.. by then he meet me at around 12.. he came juz nice before i see Dr Vincent Chia... got my mc and prescriptions, we went down to make payment.. every counter i went they kept asking me if im allergic to anything.. i think i answered about more den 5 times that IM ALLERGIC TO VOLTAREN!!! should keep a parrot with me uh!! easy...

after dat, went to CPP.. bought hot soya milk for breakfast.. den went to popular to get something but we cannot find.. end up roaming at cold storage.. den i was abit drowsy.. so hubby send me home till my doorstep...

he den went home to get ready for work... me too!! i mean.. i went to work too!! after work, he ride to my void deck to meet me.. so he waited for me to reach.. which is like about half hour of waiting.. (sorry hubby to keep u waiting..) but he is not angry cause he knows i finish work late... we sit at void deck and chat about work... he send me up to my doorstep at around 1plus (i guess).. den he start his bike and ride home.. luckily his house nearby... around sengkang...

den now here i am blogging.. time check: 0330 hours... next up... picas of us...

gd nite.. off to bed!! later got class!!!

imy hubby!! nitezz...

in the next post den...

da.........

19 OCTOBER 2008...

2008-10-21T14:43:00.005+08:00

my aunt and my new uncle..

kuda kepang mengiringi pengantin lelaki.. selain itu, mat2 motor dan lori2 logistic juga turut hadir...

pengapit Raja sehari..

tarian kuda kepang

Abon (my cousin) menghormati pengantin dgn silat helang nya sambil dilihat oleh pakcik ku Obek Hambali (berkaca mata hitam)..

tarian kuda kepang..

RAYA 2008

2008-10-21T13:58:00.006+08:00

me, maliki, ibu

me and maliki

my family...

fifah, nurul, me

nurul, fifah, me

us @ Mr Nasral's

us @ Arif's

us @ mine's

us @ Nurul's

us @ Naufal's

me and fifah

me and nurul

us @ Fifah's

nurul, fifah, me

us @ Firdaus's

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!

2008-10-03T00:53:00.003+08:00

hey people out there.. just wanna wish all muslims people a happy hari raya...

2nd day though.. not much house visited.. due to my brother is having PSLE on friday (like today!!)... so.. took less pictures... not in the mood cause having tiff with my 1 and only BF...

gosh... i miss him badly..

not to waste time, let the picas do the talking...

(P/S dun look at the backgrounds of the picas... hehe..)

OH MY GOSH!!!

2008-09-19T14:19:00.005+08:00

OMG!!!!! total of 5 people dead!!! 2 jumped and 2 murdered and 1 seriously injured... luckily the suspect has been sustained!! i couldnt sleep after hearing the people jump!! its juz next to my grandmom hse... unlucky was i there!! the news only came out about the chinese nationals.. but it didnt mention a teenager jumped after giving birth in the toilet... so scary... it all happened in the same block.. wondering if the block is "haunted" now...

ok.. hmmm abit of shocked!! but i dun care!!! im going to make malay kuehs... like the pineapple tarts and the makmur... so ya i guess i will stop here!!

HOLIDAY LIAO!!! ENJOY!!!!!!

I NEVER FELT A LOVE..

2008-09-12T04:18:00.002+08:00

I never felt a love

Like this before

It's a love like no other

Something I have always hoped for

A love with friendship

Humour and heart

A bond so strong

It would never part

A love that makes you smile

From ear to ear

A love that is joyful

Without any fear

A love that is beautiful

From the inside out

A love with no tears,

Pain, or doubt

A love with soul

So tender and true

A love that I have found

Only in you...

My joy is overflowing,

you got down on your knee

and have professed forever

your special love for me.

There was no hesitation,

the moment I said “yes,”

and gave life to the feelings

I’m longing to express.

I give myself completely,

my heart belongs to you;

I’m counting every moment

until we say “I do.”

You are the perfect person

to compliment my life;

there’ll be no brighter day than

when I become your wife.

Just three little words

don't seem like enough

for someone whose smile

still brightens my day,

whose touch can make me forget

the rest of the world.

They don't seem like enough

for someone who's always been there

to celebrate with me

when everything goes my way

and to hold my hand

when my whole world

seems to fall apart.

But even though "I Love You"

can't express the depth

of my feelings for you.

I hope you know what's in my heart.

Because loving you

means more to me

than anything in the world

and it always will.

I Love Your Love

2008-09-11T11:20:00.003+08:00

I love your dark eyes,

And your curly hair,

I love your smile,

And the way that you care.

I love your deep kisses,

I love your soft touch,

I love you, I love you,

I love you so much.

The curve of your hips

Is stuck in my mind

The taste of your lips

So sweet that I find

Myself lost in the thought

Of our next embrace

I see now I'm caught

Without even a chase

I’ve never known a love like yours

Nor thought it could be true,

But every time I kiss your lips

I feel what love can do

With hair like silk

And lips so tender,

Each moment with you

Makes my heart surrender

I couldn’t live, I couldn’t breathe

Without you by my side,

Never will I let you go,

My love will never hide

And in my heart you’ll always be

From now until forever,

No matter what, no matter where

We’ll always be together

My eyes beheld a sky one night,

It seems so long ago,

A perfectly painted portrait,

Be-speckled with blue and gold.

As I sit and ponder more,

It strikes me that you were there,

And it was truly your simple beauty,

That gave the stars their perfect glare.

I MISS HIM MORE EACH DAY!!

2008-09-05T11:03:00.003+08:00

How blessed I am that you are in my life

Not a day goes by when I do not think of you

You make everything alright

To you I do not have to prove myself

For you know me

I love you

How blessed I am that you are in my life

How honoured I am to be a part of yours

Memories made and shared

With you the one

I love

My friend, my lover, my king

'Til the end

You leave me wanting nothing more

than wanting more of you.

Your essence, your being,

Just takes me away...

Back to a time way back.

Back when charming princes

In shining armor, on white horses,

Flourished, their swords,

Making the princesses swoon.

You do that to me,

Make me laugh, and fret,

And swoon, on occasion.

But without a sword,

Or a great white horse,

Or armor,

You are still a prince.

And my prince,

Whom I'd swoon over,

Any day.

UPDATES!!

2008-09-02T14:11:00.003+08:00

Saturday, marks the Annual General Inspection 2008 for SJAB.. It was held in Dunman High Sec School.. Dat day, Bambang fetch me at Tampines and we went there together in his car.. After the event, he drove us back to HQ where we change and waited for some of his junior.. Den he drove us to Changi for supper with the rest of the officers.. To my surprise, Malek's age is as the same as mine.. haha.. But he is super short.. hahaha.. After the supper, Bambang drove the kids and den me back home safely.. Kinda miss him though.. But he is serving his NS.. awww..

Yesterday marks the 1st day of FASTING... I did fast!! hmm.. i cooked soup for breakfast.. had Horlicks as drink.. damn shiok!! dun think about food... picas on sat is up next. check it out...

HAPPY NEWLY WEDS

2008-08-26T16:40:00.010+08:00

HAPPY NEWLY WEDS to my aunt.. Natasya and her husband, Shafiq... hope u have a wonderful marriage...

me and cuzzie.. lina

me and abang zulfan...

me.. kakak.. cik noy.. lina..

me and cik noy...

AFTER 4 LONG YEARS...

2008-08-16T21:04:00.005+08:00

after 4 long years.. finally i get to meet my best best best best friend... Mikhail Amran!! it was a shocking decision.. he called me when i was on my way to bukit panjang to meet another fren... as i was excited to meet him, i wen off early to meet him...

we talk for more then 3 hours.. sharing all our sad times together... kinda miss him now though...

as a memory, we took picture.. going to meet wit him again soon..

to my best best best best friend, i hope we meet up again soon and continue with the non stop story... take care dear..

in the next post den..

da....

BORING TUESDAY...

2008-08-13T14:32:00.005+08:00

Nothing to much on a tuesday afternoon.. took picas out of boredom.. The picas below are picas of my classmates.. So have fun looking at them...

me @ Shooting Club Control Room

me!!

Winston - Stunt!!!

Carissa, SK, Mash

Winston

Carissa

THE WEEKENDS!!!

2008-08-13T13:59:00.006+08:00

During the weekend, i was bit busy with some NDP celebrations.. Den i went to my cousin's prayers held in Ubi.. after the tired day, my uncle send us home.. But before that, he brought us to Changi.. Juz to relax from the tired that we went through... I managed to take some picas..

Den on Sunday, i have to attend a "PESILAT" wedding at Pasir Ris.. after dat, i managed to find time to get home and change to go to HADI QUSYAIRI's Birthday celebarations.. although we reached there abit late, we still had fun with the birthday boy.. A year older.. My aunt help to open up his presents.. Got lots of present from frens and family..

10 August 2008 marks the 1st Month Aniverssary for me and Dan.. Nothing much to say cause i didn't manage to go out with him..

I think im done here..

In the next post den..

da.....

WHAT IS LOVE...

2008-08-08T15:34:00.000+08:00

Love is a shy smile,
a sweet hello,a soft caress...
Love is two hands entwined,
a lingering kiss,a swelling of the heart...
Love is undeniable,unforgettable,
unimaginable,and what every heart yearns for...

heys.. im back for nothing...

2008-08-06T09:55:00.003+08:00

hahaha.. sorry people.. imback.. well nothing much.. maybe u can look at the pictures for refrence...

LUNCH

2008-07-15T01:00:00.003+08:00

well, i had lunch with Carissa, Rachelle, Sook Kuan, Keng Siang and etc at LJS.. baby was on shift.. there is this cute baby which my baby was teasing.. the baby was cute.. i kept laughing alone when my baby played "peek-a-boo" with the baby.. im sure my baby loves kids...

miss u baby..

well after lunch went to City Hall.. den we proceed back to skul.. skul was bored but it ends early.. i loike!!! not much things learnt.. end of class..

went straight to work... damn tired lor.. no choice...

ANOTHER BORED DAY...

2008-07-14T23:26:00.003+08:00