WTF

This is dunno how many tymes u ask me to get out of the house!! FUCK YOU!!!

U want me out u pay the bill from day 1 u use till now, pay the PUB bills that i pay every month, pay the washing machine money back!!! U idiot!!!

Missing you

Been missing u badly eventhough i know u're juz my fren...

Kaninabuchaochibai!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!!

22nd birthday

Ulang tahun Arwah Nurul... Semoga Allah mencucuri Rahmat ke atas Roh-nya... Amin

Diwali!!!

Happy Diwali to all my fellow frens!!! Have a happiest day today!!!!

Im stuck at home with no plans!!! Im bored!!!

(:

Thanx for the small chat.. Appreciate it loads!

Keranda da siap!!!! Best!!!

Tendon Tore

Aku da jadi cacat skrg... Tkde org nk aku...

-___-

Sesungguhnya aku berasa amat TERCABAR!!!

Kenangan yang indah

Sometimes ade jugak aku terfikir tentang Darwis... Aku pun teringat ingat si Danish the kementot... I know i cant be with them.. Aku redha ape yg terjadi.. Deep down inside hanya tuhan saje yang tau bertapa aku rindukan mereka...

Adik sedara baru

Sesungguhnya aku bersyukur kepada Allah SWT kerana memberiku sedara baru iaitu Lut Hanif Bin Hussni..

FREEDOM!!

HELL YEAH!!! Im finally having back my freedom!!!

Thank GOD!

EYE - Izinkan Selamanya Namamu Dihati

Ku Sapu Airmata Perpisahan - Stings (HD/Karaoke/HiFiDualAudio)

im injured

i injured my wrist during raya.. );

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

AKU BINGIT DENGAN ORANG DEPAN AKU NIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUAT MUKE TAK AGAK2!! BENCI!!

DIA INGAT DIA BUAT KERJA TERKUTUK NIE BOLEH DAPAT NAIK PANGKAT KAPE? BOLEH BLAH LA!!! BECAUSE OF YOU I LOST MY MOOD TODAY!! SERIOUSLY AKU BENCI TENGOK MUKE KAU PUN!!!!

The Swallows Nga Lompak Ago Go ( Menari Ago Go)

LAKSAMANA - Gugurnya Bunga Cinta

Afgan - Terima Kasih Cinta

IKATAN PERTUNANGAN

I'm not sure if this sounds rite... I'm getting ENGAGE!

Right after Hari Raya.. My Aunt plans it with him... The ring will be place on my finger just right after Raya... OMG!!! 

I cant have my freedom after this!! Aku tk sangka... Seriously! Firstly, he planned it to be in November.. But now? Its like few weeks away only!! Makin hari makin rase tak menentu... 

Is he the right one for me? Am I ready for all this?

I'm confused now!

Recently I made a new friend.. SAIFUL BAHARI... He is 30 years old.. He is like a brother to me... Knows him from SAFRA Event.. He was one of the AV Tech which I have to contact to prepare the set-up for the Event.. He is so TALL... When I stand beside him, I'm only at his chest... (:

Went for movie date with Saiful yesterday.. It was AWESOME!!! I really treasured that moment I was with him.. Joking around and laughing till the early hours.. huhhu... 

Getting back at the ENGAGEMENT, I really hope I can do this!! 

GTG for now...

See u in the next post den!!! DAA!!!

The Past

It was raining heavily yesterday, i decided to take the bus instead of walking to work.. So i set off to work at 2pm... It was a 3 minutes walk from my blk to the bus stop.. Reached the Stop and waited for the bus patiently... The bus came and was about to board the bus when i heard some noise behind me.. I then turned my head slightly.. I then take a second look... CONFIRMED! It was him together with his daughter, Nur Syafiqah.. I quickly board the bus and went straight to the rear.. I was shivering for quite a while during the ride to interchange.. Im not sure why but i just did.. i didnt think about it that much! After he alighted the bus, i was back to normal.. I told myself that there is nothing to worry about.. Iwent to work without thinking anything about the incident...

It was pouring since early this morning.. i woke up as usual and did my chores... Then, i decided to accompany my grandfather to the market.. Bought things and went back home... It was normal to do when im on 3rd shift... 1pm, i decided to get ready to work... I set off at 2pm exactly.. I walk normally to the bus stop.. Was waiting for the bus and there is this guy walks past me and i had a glance... It was HIM again... Fetching his daughter.. My heart beats faster then usual... Was boarding the bus while looking down... Guess he saw me... His daughter made her way to the rear seats... I was directly behind him... Saw him sat down. So i decided to sit next to him but 1 seat back... I then gently ask what he was doing in the bus (eventhough i know)... I smiled and hit on my music loud.. I didnt look at him and was telling myself that im attached... I was so NERVOUS.... I dun know why... Heart beats fast!!! He smiled at me just before he alighted the bus! i just smiled back...

WHY? WHY? WHY? IS IT FATE FOR ME TO SEE HIM AGAIN?

After almost eight freaking years since "THAT" incident happened? ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!! now my past haunts me back!!!

Till the next post den...

HAIZ....

im not surprise if you read this... i know you will read this blog... dtas why i update it... Besides Harish and Darwis, i know some other people read this too...

Wadever it is, 8 more days to go!!! yeah.. like FINALLY!! another HOLIDAY this year... after my Last BANDUNG trip in MARCH... this time round, its Genting and Kuala Lumpur... not with FAMILY but with group of FRIENDS!! im going with, Idayu, Aaliah, Hamzah, Khai, Hidil and many many more...

Met Rajan early in the morning and he was like one ZOMBIE!! he didnt sleep... and MARAN was SLEEPING!!! wad a partner!!

Oh YA! i almost forgot!! my veins on my right eyes ruptured.. SUBCONJUCTIVAL HAEMORRHAGE... it is a bleeding underneath the conjuctiva which contains many small, fragile blood vessel that are easily ruptured or broken. when this happens, blood leaks into the spacebetween the conjuctiva and sclera, whereas a bruise typically appears black or blue, underneath the skin, a subconjuctival heamorrhage initially apperas bright red underneath the transparent conjuctiva and it may spread and become green or yellow, like a bruise. Doctor said it will dissappears within 2 weeks!!! imagine 2 weeks with this kind of eyes... i can only see partially with my right eyes now... SIGH!!

THIS IS DURING TE 1ST DAY WHEN IT HAPPENS

THIS IS TAKEN ON THE 2ND DAY

Thank u for letting me go

At first, i was shocked to received sms fro ADI FARHAN... i tot he just wanna say hi or something.. i was with AFAD dat night... i read the sms without he knowing and the message clearly said that he want us to go our seperate ways.. this was wad i have been waiting for since 2 months ago... FINALLY! i told him yes i do have feelings for you.. but we are like normal frens who will meet once in a while... its not fair to me also... i caught him with a girl one day.. but i didnt say much.. coz i know he is much younger den me.. for now, i have AFAD.. who is keeping me company since my birthday... I NEVER FELT RELIEVE BEFORE... THANK YOU ADI FARHAN!

Saat Terakhir

hebat cintamu

a fren of mine sing this song.. i found dat its nice... he has a nice voice too...

Disaat Aku Mencintaimu

terus terang

thankz

u halau me from ur life.. thank u.. now i know where i stand in u DARWIS! i know i will never win ur heart again... i shouldnt have bother you anymore!! thanx Darwis Daniel!!!

kau bagaikan bidadari

Jangan Pernah Berubah

random...

been missing Darwis lately... 

was on Medical Leave for two days.. haiz... boring... but wad to do? was breathless.. lucky didnt go to asthma mode! (hope not!)

followed Dr Lo instruction carefully... took medicine properly.. this tyme didnt overdose of anything... 

He just text me... : Watpe? 

ok... i found dat he  is cute sometimes.. i know he belongs to someone now.. haiz... wish i didnt do those things dat made me lose him... 

this tyme round, i try not to do such things... 

walaupun aku tak sayangkan dia, aku akan tetap nikah.. i just need a shelter to stay... aku bersyukur sangat sangat kerana dia hadir pada saat aku memerlukan seseorang.. 

aku tak pernah sayang orang lain selain Dawris.. no one can change dat!!

Thank You

Ya Allah, terima kasih kerana memberi aku seseorang yang betul betul menyayangi aku...

Today, while im at work, he came and bring me surprises.. He gave me a necklace... im so TOUCH!... Almost i cried... im really touched by the care and love that he showered me with... thankiu ALLAH for sending him to me...

25th April 2011

alhamdulillah... pujian bagi Allah SWT!

Im already 26.. Thankiu Allah for letting me stay on ur beautiful earth...

Exactly at 0000hours of 25th April 2011, Feddly Shah proposed to me... It was never expected... I was Shocked...

Thankiu for the ring... HEARTS u... Insyaallah, when the tyme comes we shall step into a new world...

im sorry

aku rase serba salah terhadap Adi Farhan.. i got to know he truly love me and i dated Fadli behind his back.. oh god.. im so confused... barely my birthdae dat Fadli proposed to me.. i was wondering when Adi will do dat.. when i asked him, he said he was not ready yet as he is not even enlisted for NS... he also said dat he is too young to even think about marriage... well, i was strong to accept his reasons till i think again this evening... i suddenly feel confused... i dun even know who to choose.... 

to choose Shah, he is much more younger den Adi...

to choose Harish, he didnt even reply my messages..

IM TOTALLY CONFUSED!!!

Adi, im truly sorry if i cheated ur feelings... 

Shah, you are way too young for me dear.. 

Harish, i hope u understand wad i feel...

i think i stop here...

Thankiu

Today is the memorable day for me.. It was after my shift at work.. After i clock out, i turn n saw AIDIL... it was dat 10 seconds we stopped and stare at each other n smile!!! I was lucky enuf dat i didnt shout his name! I quickly realised dat he is married.. True enuf, his wife enter the door and i juz walk away... I was waiting for this very moment coz it has been so long that i have nt meet him!!

I thank GOD for dat few seconds dat make me smile the whole nite!!

THANKIU!!!

Random Tots...

many things happens... im so bored and tired... having him doesnt make any difference... been thinking of him lately... but i know it wouldnt go far...

Darwis and me still contacting.. planning for a short getaway.. but gt no friends.. haiz... OH GOD! i just realised that i need to do something.. no worries... i will write again...

in the next post den... dddaaaaaa!

New tiltle with a different meaning

Today i received a letter from HR.. First thing came in mind was: "did i do anything wrong?" Slowly i open the letter.. To my surprise, it was about the change in our designation... From "Projects & Events Facilitator", it is now call, "Sports Shooting Specialist". Nice and unique title i have now...

THANX HR!!

I LOVE THE NEW DESIGNATION..!! I ADMIT I REALLY DO!!

First, it was my pay, now a new designation.. thanx SAFRA!!!

Praises to ALLAH!!! Alhamdulillah...

I AM PROUD TO BE "SPORTS SHOOTING SPECIALIST"!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH...

pujian bagi Allah SWT. kenaikan pangkat.... tidak terpikir akan kenaikkan pangkat kerana kerjaku sempurna kelak...

alhamdulillah juga kerana kuatkan iman ku menjalinkan persahabatan antara aku dan Mikhail, ADI dan juga tidak lupa akan DARWIS yang banyak memberiku sokongan moral... THANX many2 guyz!!

eventhough there is alot of hiccups along the way, i manage to score a Grade B+ for my work...

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!

pasal 1 mulut, periuk nasi org pecah...

im pissed off by someone reactions... pasal 1 mulut, periuk nasi org pecah... dun think you can get away with this easily.. yes i can tell him not to come... can i also tell her not to come? aku da banyak dengar berita pasal kau!! yes im just a junior staff.. i can also make u suffer... without the black magic i can make u suffer... i will make u lost your job one day.. im being very nice here... dun u think u can step on my head!

IM REALLY PISSED OFF BY YOU...

I GOT NO MORE RESPECT FOR YOU! IM TELLING YOU TO FUCK OFF FROM MY SIGHT!

ARGH!!!!!

how could you?

Monday blues... one after another..

Adi quarrelled with George.. i was not there to witness the incident.. as there was a call for me.. eventually Adi had a bad temper.. im still n shcoked over the incident when George came to me that Adi uses vulgarity towards him.. i really wanted to cry... but i just cant because im on shift. CK asked Adi to meet him at the office..

Adi came down and told me that today is his last day.. wad else? i straight away having fever... i just could not bare that today is his last day.. im really dissapointed with him..

i really want to cry!!! but im still in office and i just cannot cry!!! my eyes are turning red cause i control myself from tearing... i dun know how else to control... i cannot be sitting beside him with a fake smile... cannot be sitting at the counter with a fake smile either.. im really really dissapointed that he did all this.. after my hardship getting this work for him and he did this.. how could you hunz?? yes i love u!! but dat doesnt mean that u can do anything and even stepping my head when at work.... maybe today is the last dae dat i even text u or call u hunz... i promised myself that i wont be calling you hunz anymore.!!!

Screen - Permata Hati ( Download Link Included)

Just for you...

random...

i was wondering why sometimes, i feel i hate him and sometimes im jealous wen he talks to other girls or even text, talking on the phone.. sometimes im angry with him and the hate is there.. sometimes, i need him close to me... sometimes i dun even bother to look at his face or even wanna text him.. just like i dun need him.... 

i missed Darwis badly... miss talking and joking with him... guess he is happy now with his family.. but sometimes, i did text him and try to chat wit him.. but to no avail... 

work was fine.. but it gets tougher each day... knowing there is much things to settle... without the tough work, thats not work.. no work in this world is easy... 

ITS NEW YEAR... 

hope i succeed in everything i do.. just wish my luck and wish me stay healthy... 

in the next post den... da... <3

Maher Zain - For The Rest Of My Life with Lyrics